Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Just a vent, ranting, whatever…..

Ahhhhhhh….I just need to vent.  Feel free to ignore me.  :)


Do you know what sucks?  What sucks is watching your 6 year old laying on the couch, unable to sleep because she doesn’t want to close her eyes in case the bad thoughts come.  So you watch her, for a good hour, lay on the couch and stare at anything in an attempt to stay awake.  I am helpless to help her in these situations.  I can rub her back, hold her, rock her, and try to make her smile.  But no matter what I do, she will still cry, still feel bad, still ask me if everything she touches is clean, still have that nearly constant neck tic, and have nights that she does not want to sleep.

She’s the most loving, thoughtful, and possibly the funniest child I have ever known.  OMG, don’t get her started; once she’s on a roll, you will be laughing your ass off.  She tries to make everyone happy, and thinks about others before she thinks about herself.  But it’s this “thing,” this thing that has its grips on her that I cannot fix.  I don’t want to change who she is, I just don’t want her to suffer because of it. 

So I will sit on the couch with her, hold her, and tell her that everything is okay.  And once again, she will thank me, tell me that she loves me, play with my hair, and hopefully drift off to sleep.


Nessa said...

So sorry mama! I wish there was something I could do. I wish I had the extra money to give you to have her helped by those that may know what's wrong and have the ability to help her.

I'll look online and see what I can find as far as her symptoms. I can call my neurologist just for advice if you want or go back to the diet thing again and see if there are any links there.

I have issues with Bella and the blood thing. Just last night she brushed her teeth, there was a little blood and then she started feeling faint, so Chris had to lay with her until she calmed and fell asleep.

Hang in there mama. ((hugs))

MelissaB said...

Have you tried using melatonin? I take it every night for my sleep problem. I go to bed and it seems no matter how tired I am, my brain won't shut off. I don't necessarily feel stressed or worried, but my brain just keeps wandering, no amount of counting or breathing exercises seems to help. I take 5 mg about 1/2 an hour before bed. I haven't had any side effects and can't recall hearing of any. Maybe it will help her brain shut off enough to get some sleep? It doesn't make you sleepy, it just helps you sleep when you are ready. FWIW, the capsule forms work better than the tablets. I buy Nutritional Alliance in a brown bottle with white and orange label from Publix.